"Don't let this be your America" one of the many things I was told in the first months of being here. My response on the other hand was "I've got it under control". Oh, how I so don't. We're on break for a month and although we have stuff to do, its very refreshing because you don't have to do as much. Sleeping in is one thing that's wonderful, which this past week sleeping in has been 8:00. And that gives me a half an hour to get ready. And I realized something last night, although being around Godly people, constantly hearing about faith and scripture, He's been missing from my life. Truly. Maybe in the day when I want to or feel like it. But I'll admit there are times I feel lonely. I was writing in my journal last night what I missed having about having friends that have known me forever and I'm looking at the list and it hit me, all this time I've been feeling sorry for myself and caught up in me, Gods been trying to show me that I'm not lonely. He's been right there every-time I've cried, every time I've laughed at myself and every time I've been frustrated. Juvenile? Maybe. But how many times do we as humans get so caught up in our own lives that we've blocked God out through pity parties? I've let these past months be wasted, pretty much. Yes, I've learned things but I haven't been giving Him my everything at all times. I don't want to come back the same person I left as, if that's the case I shouldn't have come. It's funny when you hear statements made and its not that big of a deal, but when God hits you in the head with a brick of a conviction then it's huge. Sometimes I think statements being made around us and the convictions of others are God's way of hinting what he wants us to find out. But sometimes it takes a conviction of our own to get the point across. And that seems to be what he's been doing lately. Hitting me in the head. So now I have "coffee/tea dates" in the morning. Just me, a cup of coffee/tea, my journal, my Bible and the Holy Spirit.
With school being out its very quiet around here, for the most part. We are going hiking/camping tomorrow. Hike up a mountain then sleep up there and hike back down. Tomorrow morning though we are doing outreach in the little village, below the mountain. So excited!!! For camping, but mainly what's going to happen tomorrow morning. Also we are going camping again the day after Christmas for a couple of days in Nwendi. And there will be waterfalls to jump off of!
We've switched roommates. Which is a normal thing every three months. There is only two guys so, they don't get the privilege of switching rooms. :) But us four girls...we get the privilege! I'll keep you posted on everything.
Prayer requests: boldness and obedience to say or do whatever he lays on my heart and the teams, to always be in the right heart no matter what I do, or where I go. To listen to the Holy Spirit, go where God moves me emotionally, spiritually, and literally.
To everybody at HFBC and "The Meeting Place", I love and miss you guys so much. I'm so thankful for all your encouragement, prayers and concerns.
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